I’m still hanging in here!

I heard you sigh!

Thought I’d better raise one’s head before you think I’m dead. I think last post was about marriage failure and contributing factors. Personally I think the tablets and surgery has changed me slightly. GP and epilepsy specialists think not. Due to my situation/torture I went to the GP about the stress I was going through, all sorts of up and down feelings, panic attacks, aggression and the feeling of wanting a quick way out. They refered me to a therapist.

Yes I’ve said it! THERAPIST

It needn’t be a taboo word, whether or not you have a brain tumour or related to or friends with someone who has one. We all suffer mental health issues at some point in our lives. I don’t think rasing awareness does much because there are so many things that could fall in to the category of mental health. I clearly thought I was being brave and coping well but infact was being wore down by it all and i can see it now.

Anyway, was let go after a few sessions (probably thought “can’t deal with this nutter”). Having moved out of the family home and living on my own I feel better for it and the therapist helped through this period (I won’t go in to full details as you would think I made it up, even the therapist was slightly shocked and amazed at the same time lol), sounds strange doesn’t it. I’ll tell you why, the type of stress at home with a failed marriage infront of kids is different one from living on your own with access to your kids; where both parties are not under eachothers feet making the situation worse.

Transport is an issue as my wife was the “taxi”.

If you live in the UK it might be good to speak to your council office to see if you are eligible for a free bus pass, I am because of the epilepsy (if you live in Derbyshire it is called a gold card and it is not just for pensioners). It has now given me a little freedom, never bothered with it before as I was with my wife and she had the family car.

Christmas coming soon, I’ll stick another post up soon.